Life, mortician's wife, homesick!

Just Me and Nathan doing what we are good at! Being GOOF Balls! It never gets old! We make up songs, and games, and have our own mini dance parties. Ohh and our favorite thing to do is watch the people in the pool and make up the conversations that people are having. Or we make up their thoughts about what is going on around them. It's pretty funny! We have nick named all the pool regulars!

I think I sat on him and tied that ribbon on his head, then made him take pictures with me! What a good guy!

Blaaa! That is life right now! I am not writing this to make you bad for me, in fact no one should feel bad for me because I have an awesome life and I am blessed with a lot. But on the other hand life right now is kinda confusing to me...

The first thing that is making me feel blaa about life is that I haven't seen so many of my family and friends forever. I miss home, I miss my family, I miss knowing people at the grocery store. I had a nephew born yesterday and I of course wasn't there. I miss being around and seeing the milestones of my cute little nephews and nieces. My broken heart could be healed if I just had hope that my husband would get done with school and get a job and move me back to Washington, but that is out of the question. Which bugs me and yet still doesn't bug me because why??? Because I am a girl, and things bug me one second, and go right over my head the next! AND NO I AM NOT PREGNANT! haha (But I might tell you that I am pregnant so I can get to the front of the line at a potluck! Then I'll take it right back!!) Anyways, about the family situation, I don't want to be next door to my family, but a quick flight would sure be nice. But if I live in Vernal it is 3 hours to the airport! YUCK! So what really is buggin me I guess, is that I had a picture perfect life set up for myself. I was going to live close to family, be rich, have a sweet house, cute kids, always be a hott mama, and have the husband of my dreams. 1 down 6 to go! I have a really sweet house!! haha Just kiddin! What I meant to say is, that I have the husband of my dreams. Which is true, very true! But here is the big issue of my life. Especially today. My husband had to ditch me to go fulfill an embalming credit for school. You know what that means right?! (I want you all to know that I have upmost respect and humility for the deceased and their family) But that being noted, death and everything with it is hard and never easy for me to deal with. From the sad story, to the grieving family, to the blood and the actual dead human! When Nate came home, he tried to kiss me! DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT IS LIKE!!!?? No you don't, because your husband is probably doing something normal! It's is so weird, but only because I can't stop my crazy imagination that is leading me to believe that he is covered in gross fluid or something. OKAY JANA THAT IS SICK! Right? But it is so hard. I even lose my appetite a little. But that is going to be life for me shortly. I could possible live at a mortuary. I am scared of what my life has in store for me. I will never get away from death. When I have friends, family, visiting teachers, home teachers, or anyone in world over to our house, what do they want to know about??? All the sick stuff that Nathan has to deal with. All the crazy families, embalming, blood an'guts, and so forth and so on! Not that it bugs me in the moment, I am just worried about 10 years down the road, when all I want in the world is a normal dinner conversation, I am going to internally cobust or something horrible. Because I just don't realy want to talk about dead people 24/7. If I went to dinner at friends house I would ask about their husbands work and all that, but it just so happens that my husbands job is CRAZY, it pulls on a lot of heart strings and is not the most pleasant dinner conversation.

Anyways Mr. Peterson took a shower, and now I am okay with sitting by him! So I better let this complaining session go, and get back to hanging with my main slice.

I am so excited for my new life, but life right now is dealing with all the changes that I have recently put myself through... i.e moving to Atlanta, sooo far away from everything I know. And trying to mentally prepare myself for all the many changes that will occur when Nathan is a licensed Funeral Director... i.e living with dead people, car rides with caskets, moving all the way back to UTAH! Just to name a few! GOOD luck to the morticians wife!! hahaha ohhh noooo!! HAHA :) :) :) Just keep smiling and say your prayers! Right? RIGHT!!!

I LOVE LIFE! AND ALLLLL OF IT"S SURPRISES!

I sure hope this makes sense. I am going to get get some frozen custard instead of editing this.